Phew! Done! Well, almost done, I still have to add the citations and put together a reference page, proof it several times, add headers, footers, page numbers and a title page. Like I said – done. I have been putting off this research paper for a few weeks. Why? Well, unfortunately because I can. Yup, the gift that is a curse – two for the price of one. I can write pretty well and usually on demand. My research skills are adequate for the level of depth required and if I have access to an APA, MLA, APSA or whatever style guide to the format that a particular discipline uses, I can re-learn how to correctly format my paper and be done with it. Eight to ten hours spread over two to four days is usually sufficient.
The bad part is that because I don’t respond well unless there is some pressure, I waited – again – until there was some. A lot of words just to say procrastination, really. It is a terrible habit – even worse when left unchecked. Believe me, I know. True, there is a latent thrill of getting in just under the wire, but the pain of falling on my face if missed isn’t worth it. Ask me how I know.
So this term paper I’ve been putting off – wait, I can phrase it better… writing in my head, brainstorming… ya, that’s it – is due on Thursday morning. “But this is only Tuesday night” you say? True enough, and close enough. I don’t have to cut it so close today to get the motivation I need. However, it is apparent that if I’m given more time than necessary, one may rest assured it will not be done until near the deadline.
The point of all this is that for the last week to two weeks I have been stressing on it. Not so much writing it in my head, just stressing. I was experiencing real procrastination, the likes of which I haven’t felt in quite some time. I did not want to write this paper. I did not find it interesting; it was too vague, too narrow, too this and too that. Fortunately, the bigger picture kept my focus on what I needed to do and the positive aspect of being able to pull this stuff together quickly played its role. And now the rest I’ll put off until tomorrow.
Hey! What’s the rush?